i realised that i hate being alone
being alone meant making my thoughts go wild

i started thinking,

would this be the last time
i dance the family dance
would it be the last time
i train in the gymnasium and be part of the schl team
would it be the last time
i'm able to spend time with those i cannot bear to part with

i dont mean to sound dramatic or anything
but what if, it really does happen ?
it really wont be easy to let go
maybe it wont happen
but yet again
maybe, just maybe, it will ?

i cant seem to be bothered with myself
why should anyone do so if i cant do so for myself ?

but i've had greaat days in schl :)
the past few days have been boring BUT wonderful :)
i dont have alot of time left before schl closes
i'm gonna miss my nuer :(
i could cry just by imagining the major differences without her arnd

LAINE ; we've only got a week left
i dont want to imagine coming back to schl not seeing you anywhere
but i promise that we'll keep in touch okay ?
i love you nuer - hugs